Forever Job

One of my responsibilities at work is to take the crisis phone for a week at a time every few months. It used to intimidate me. What if I don't say the right thing? What if I can't help? It probably has something to do with losing my husband to suicide. I've had several calls this week and I am humbled by the strength these people have to reach out for help. That, often, just hearing the voice of someone who cares can get them through the darkest part. Asking if I can call them to check in later and hearing relief in their voices. I am so grateful to be in the field that I am. I'm grateful for the opportunity I have had to learn and grow. I'm blessed to have been led to an employer who values me. I work with inspirational people, every single one of them. This work can be exhausting, but I look forward to it every day and that is amazing!

Amy Win's

I went to my company picnic this afternoon and won a 55 inch TV! Woo! The true win is working for a company that cares and strives to make a positive change in the lives of their clients as well as employees. Thank you Pearl Health! I am grateful to be a part of this important work and am honored to work with such amazing people!!

Change Is Possible and Beneficial

 A year ago, I made a much needed change and began a new job with Pearl Health. I have found amazing people, support, opportunity for growth, and I truly feel valued. I am so grateful for the opportunity I have to be a part of an amazing organization doing so much good in the world. Their values line up with mine and it's a great feeling! Change can be so hard, but change can sometimes be the best thing.

Annalina Can Make Anything Fun

A beautiful day for a drive! I had a fun companion to travel with! Annalina and I ended up in Salt Lake. Convenient since I have surgery at the University Hospital early in the morning! Wish me luck! Enjoy fancy shots of our room.

Birthday Dreams Come True

In my happy place, covered in Kittens for my birthday!!

Self Care

Thanks to Annalina, I went to my first pound class tonight. I was awkward and attentive trying to recreate their moves, but it was dark, so I did fantastic! ;) It's been 4 years since my battle with Breast Cancer began. It took so much from me, at a time in my life where I had little left to give. But I survived with the love and support of so many of you. However, it really wore me down. I want to start repairing the damage cancer and its treatments caused me, both physically and emotionally. I will fight for those most important to me, but I never truly learned that I am important too. And that makes me sad. I am still here for many good purposes. I have many things left to accomplish in my life. I am worthy. I am unstoppable. Let's all hope I survive tomorrow, because if I don't, well, that would make this a really awkward entry. ;)

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Atlantic Ocean

 My feet in the Atlantic! Oceans are my happy place!

Mind vs Soul

I hit a wall today. A big thick painful wall. In all honesty, I have seen it coming for a while. But I have shoved the emotions down and ignored them and now they have come spilling out of the cracks in my healing heart and there is nowhere to put them all. I want to climb into my safe place, my bed, and just let it all out, but I have too much to do today. I have plans with my widows group tonight, and even if my mind is telling me I just can't do it, I know it is what my soul needs, even for just a little while. Things will get better, they always do, but this roller coaster ride can get exhausting.

Don't Fight Your Sleeping Pills

 Last night I took a sleeping pill, but didn't go right to bed. I ended up joining instagram (???) And I made an unexpected largish purchase online. Well, Annalina is thrilled to be getting a cell phone and I guess I was planning to get her one soon anyway...

Funniest part, I woke up thinking it was all a dream!! Nope!

Graduation...Finally!!!!

Free Hugs

Today, in Rexburg, it is "Free Hug Day". A fun group of students from the Paul Mitchell school were there asking people if they wanted a free hug. A lot were turning them down, but I got a group hug like I have never gotten before! I encourage you all to find someone you love and hug them, or find someone who you have no idea who they are and hug them! OK, probably someone you know unless you are with a huge group of girls giving free hugs! Fun day, now off to read two chapters on healthcare insurance! Blah!! I'd rather be hugging strangers!

Winter Wonderland by Adrienne

The snow just keeps falling here in Rexburg! Today I decided to go on a bike ride to take some photos. Since my siblings didn't feel like coming with me, my mom came with instead. We had such a great time! Rexburg is truly amazing, and the snow makes everything beautiful. When I was taking some photos of the river, I heard a crack from below me, and I looked down to find myself actually standing on ice! I was standing on the river! It was quite an adventure. =)